Absence from Guilt by Undefined Lunar Aura

Your ginger ale sitting in my fridge
Your hand-made lamp shade at my bedside while i sleep
The notes you wrote me scattered all over my house
Receipts of your presence
Fragments of you selfishly belonging
To the place that hurt you most
This house is a prison
That I let swallow you
This body is fake
This soul soaked in poison
Leaving you longing for the promise
of a calm after the storm
I am guilty
Of turning the other cheek
Hanging my head in the dark
When you needed my light most
My guilt does not feel like my right
I should have known
If I really cared
If I really listened
If I really loved
We could have been happy
I took an innocent person
And selfishly broke you down past bone
I took a vibrant soul
And blacked you out without second thought
I chose bottles
I chose lies
I chose hiding
I chose hurt
And I'm left with nothing but regret
There's nothing I wouldn't trade to start over again
To be the person I was supposed to be
To give you anything
To love you
Even for one single hug
To feel your gaze in my heart
To hear those three simple words
I would give my life
If i knew that I wouldn't hurt you again
but I can't put you through that again
It's too late
And you've moved on
You will live a better life without me
You will dream again
You will laugh again
You will live again
And I will hold back my tears for you
I will watch as you find your happiness without me
With a heart full of regret
And a soul full of pain
Longing for my choices back
For this to all be a nightmare
And to wake up in your arms
The warm glow of the sun
Illuminating your face
The warm embrace of your body
Enveloping me
Keeping me safe
If only I had done the same to you
If only I had been the slightest bit of the person you were to me
If only I returned your beauty
Your care
Your help
Your love
My love,
I hope my absence brings you the peace that my presence never could
I hope my absence brings you the peace that my presence never could

• Experimental
• Expiremental
• Irish
• ambient
• drone
• grindcore
• hardcore
• noise
• sludge metal
• Galway