PROCESS by Samora Pinderhughes

PROCESS (the truth)

There’s some things that I don’t wanna admit,
So I try not to think about it
There’s a lot of ugly things in my heart
And I just hope to the lord I don’t slip

I wonder what it’s like to let it out,
That part of me that I’m so afraid of
It holds on me and tosses me about
It doesn’t seem to be something I get away from

Tell me, How do you name those well-kept secrets,
That you never say out loud?
And why does the body see these demons,
But keep me from calling out?

I guess I’ll just say it’s a process...
One day, at a time
There’ve been weeks when I already lost it
But I came back every time

....

There’s a whole entire world that I’ve created in my mind
And it’s so much more real than the one I see outside
I’ve populated it with people who can see that I’m no good
And who know all the best places where I can go to hide

And I’m haunted by the ghost of my best friend
Who just left me to head to the next world
But I’d like to believe it’s the west end
With a room full of art and his best girl
It’s a positive thing I can feel him
But I don’t know if I took advantage
Of the times he was right in the next room
‘cause my pain was such I couldn’t stand it

(Tell me,)
How do you name those well-kept secrets,
That you never say out loud?
And why does the body see these demons,
But keep me from calling out?

I guess I’ll just say it’s a process...
One day at a time
There’ve been weeks when I already lost it
But I came back every time

....

When you ask me what’s wrong,
you might think I don’t hear you
But that’s not the case
I just might not respond,
I don’t want to be near you
‘cause I’m so ashamed
I’ll keep the TV on,
And just let it wash over
All of these many fears
And hope I wake up less weary
Tomorrow mornin’

(WORDLESS SECTION)

LAST CHORUS - REPEATED
I guess I’ll just say it’s a process
guess I’ll just say it’s a process
One day at a time
There’ve been weeks when I already lost it
But I came back every time
Yes, I came back every time.

lyrics by Samora Pinderhughes

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