Wounded Healer by Rúnahild

Wounded Healer is my own journey and process of healing past trauma. I have spent a fair amount of time spinning my way back to the source of my inner darkness and the reason for the social anxiety and depression that have greatly influenced my life from the very start.
On this journey I have understood that my own painful experiences have been tainted by the unresolved traumas within my family, that reflected upon me. Whether passed down through genetics or through how their presence, actions and energies have affected my life, I became aware of the ancestral patterns that vibrate in disharmony within me, which needs to be transformed.
One layer at a time, I have been diving deeper into the inner sea of my unconscious, with Mother Nature to give me a shelter and to always remind me of the magic of this world and with music to give me a way to express myself when I otherwise became silent.
One layer at a time, I came closer to the source of my aching. The hardships, violence and abuses experienced within my family have left a deep open wound, which has been influencing my own way of coming into this world and experiencing life.
So I had a drum journey which I initiated by inviting the spirit of all my ancestors to join me and heal as I heal within. And as I journeyed back in time seeking answers, old wounds and forgotten memories concealed within my subconscious came back to the surface. And so I saw the faces of my ancestors and I could see in their eyes the tremendous and deeply ingrained amount of pain that had been torturing them. I could feel how their own life experiences, their struggles to survive and the wars they had to endure had shaped them. And I could see how this transpired from one generation to the next and how it had been defining a long line of individuals, and in the end, haunting me.
So I sat among the shadows and I listened to those distant whispers. As I held space for them, it became clear to me that what they had been craving for all along was nurture, safety and care. As this part of me emerged from my underworld, I met the darkness with love, and I breathed in the life energy it had been withholding. And as this transcending stream of energy rises from within, I sing myself free and back into my body, I dance with the wilderness and feel the ecstasy of life spellbinding me.
My shadows and my light makes me whole on this ever-going process of transformation, acknowledging both the wounded and the healer within.

Rúnahild is a free spirited ethereal folk and folktronica project, hailing from an off-grid wooden cabin in the mountains of Norway. Inspired by her healing journey and spiritual connection to nature, her music aims to hold space for others to explore their own inner universe.

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