forthright peak from two honest. by paloé

I’ll start talking bout’ me, but if i do that a little i’ll be considered selfish
But if i don't speak at all i’ll be considered helpless, but fuck it.
Before i go down imma speak my truth before they shut it.
I will never be seen as the gender that i am,
Regardless if I try, I'll still pass as a man.
If I told my therapist I'm having thoughts again then it will prove I don't deserve freedom yet again.
Can't pretend if i'm way too honest it bites back
I made friends, I'm still lonely as shit. if you don’t get it, that's good. you living better than me
Nothing ever sits right when you are on a blood spree

Most people joke about this so lighty, when i'm fighting
That's how i know they’ve never been in my place
Accepting fate, my talent, is a waste, cause I'm giving it away to the dead.
You say that I deserve the world but I never seem to get an inch of it.
Don’t follow my footsteps. I am a bad example.
I couldn’t handle all the fuckery that puts finger guns to my head
I had so many opportunities with different methods.
I didn’t take them cause my hope was still represented.
This world is too fucking cruel my death will be a benefit.
They would take the news 5 minutes and forget the shit.
It’s good to know I always have a motherfucking way out

randos that could save me,
I feel your fucking guilt,
I wish I met me too,
To save my fucking self.
But instead you knew me too late
To help me carry some weight
I will barely be remembered as my true self
I affected all your lives so I’m sorry, I’m doing you a favor.
so celebrate and take it as a waiver.
The train is coming, the bullet’s running, the blade is cutting, I am the “wanna be girl” it’s really something.
I hope you’ll save the next life that thinks about this after.
Never mind. It doesn’t matter.

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