Fever Dream from Objet a by Old Girl

I remember watching you
smoking on my balcony
watching the smoke rise about your head
watching you from inside
watching you from behind
smoking on my balcony

watching you smoke away your anxiety
watching you caress your addiction
with the same hand you use to caress me
transcend the emptiness
with smoke on my balcony

never seen so many cigarette butts in an ashtray
you out-smoke everybody
that's ever smoked on my balcony
kiss a hundred cigarettes that you left for me to clean

when we made love your hands were shaking
you were cold, sweaty, and shivering
like a child caught in a fever dream
detoxing in my bed
from somniferum and too much drinking
and I tried to hold your hands still
I tried to keep them warm against my heart
on vacation in my bed
I touched your lips all night long

I wanted you to know my love is safe
wanted you to know my love is safe
my love,
my love is safe

• Experimental
• bedroom pop
• darkwave
• gothic
• meloncholy
• underground
• Victoria