Growing Up from Negative Nelson by Negative Nelson

Growing up,
Growing bigger,
How exciting,
The world is so inviting.
I'm playing chef in my plastic kitchen,
I'm going to be an astronaut,
Mom and Dad think I'm so smart.

But as I get older I forget these things,
I make friends and foes and in-betweens
And I learn so much,
Every single day.

It all slowed down around thirteen
Or twelve, or ten, those kids are so mean,
They tell you you're ugly or stupid or both.
It won't stop there and it never ends,
God how I wish I had some more friends.
Maybe if somebody liked me, they'd all leave me alone.

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One day I decided to die
Because all I could do was cry
I didn't try to say goodbye to anyone.
Things are getting better I think,
Once a month I go to a shrink.
She tells me that I'll be okay.
Maybe she's right today.

I'm not sure where to go from here.
Maybe college and then a career
It's scary but I think I'll survive
No longer armed with plastic spoons and knives
From my plastic kitchen
I can't remember if we left it in Michigan
When we moved when I was five or six
Why is it that I suddenly miss
All the barbies and snowmen and trips to the store
With Mommy and Daddy, can we look at the toys,
The play-dates and candy and Sesame Street,
The floor in my mind is starting to creak and it only gets worse
Soon I'll be twenty,
God I'm so scared where will I get the money
For college or rent or a new pair of shoes
Maybe I should just start singing the blues.

• Alternative
• indie pop punk
• indie rock
• singer-songwriter
• Somerset