CJD Rewritten by The Creationist

This fan project is a fan reimagining of Matthew eder’s cjd with new tracks and remastered old songs

Month one:

Side A: Working memory no longer gets consolidated into long-term memory as easily. Fond memories from long ago compensate for trouble processing the present. The world seems to be ending with a whimper, but memories made along the way make this life worth living.


Side B: You can't shake the feeling that you're mistaken. You used to only twitch while angry, but now you twitch no matter what. If your hands weren't being pricked with tiny pins, you'd just stay in bed all day. You can't feel happy, and you can't feel your fingers; the only thing you feel is somber, mistrustful fear.

month two:

Side C: You can't speak your mind. At first it was because you didn't trust them; now the words just come out wrong. The enemy came out of hiding and now patrols your neighborhood. You're being stalked by masters of stealth noticed only by yourself. Can't remember where they're from, but you're sure you've fought them before. You remember your entire life that way. As far as you know, you always have.


Side D: You're being tripped and shocked and they won't leave you alone. You've surrendered, retreating to a select few rooms you feel safe in. You don't sleep. You don't know anyone. You only remember those times you saw them do something, and you can't hold onto those moments like you used to. You can't hold onto anything anymore.

Month three:

Side E: With the way you carry yourself, most people would think you don't have the slightest idea who you are. You do have the slightest idea. That's all you have. Loyalty and camaraderie define the very best moments of your life, and underpin the worst. Your mind hopelessly wanders between the two, trying to understand the present through the cracked lens of an incomplete past.


Side F: You did something with someone and it was good. Things were good. This is all you can think about, and you're thinking yourself in circles. You used to walk in circles, back when it wasn't so dangerous. Now you're thinking in circles. You're in a rut that's about to give way to the gates of hell.

Month four:

Side G: Your mind is no longer your home, thoughts crash into eachother like waves in a vast ocean. Strange people surround you, you don't know them, you've never met them in your life, their words are alien to you, they call themselves your family. You're taken to a place with other people just as, if not more deteriorated than you. They are not your friends, you have none, not even your own self. Looking into a mirror, you can't recognize the face that looks back at you.

Side H: The world around you that you once called paradise, is now just nothing but a place of despair. You had lost lots of what made you, you. Your trapped in your bed and can’t get out to stand as you feel like your legs are just malfunctioning.


Special thanks to ​⁠walletinspector for helping me with the descriptions and some track names
Credit to Conundrum for the art
Credit to voorwerp for the g side covers
Credit to melanitta perspicillata for the side D cover image
Credit to zdraven for f7 name
Credit to Matthew Eder ​⁠for the Original CJD.