MΞИƬHΞЖ from ⦊ꓓΞṾǏṾΞꓷ⦉ by PJ Banfield
Tracklist
10. | MΞИƬHΞЖ | 5:09 |
Lyrics
(Verse 1)
Boots on tile
Socks soaked in light
They said he’s insane
I said I’m right
They stabbed my thigh and blurred the room
The padded cell became my tomb
I watched the walls forget my name
The mattress bled the voices came
I screamed, let me out
My voice broke through doubt
One ghost leaned in with a hollow face
He pressed his ear to the glass so near
And said to me, I can’t hear you clear
(Verse 2)
Sixteen booked in a cellblock trance
Juvie walls buzzed in my stance
They said I was unstable enhanced
Sent me to Cerritos by chance
Didn’t believe I came cuffed from the crypt
Sat in group with wrists still lit
Then came the shot they call the drip
Haldol glitch in a medic script
Strapped to steel with a cold tight grip
Room went white with a flicker light
Ripped the mattress open wide
Tied each ring like gods inside
Whispered emptiness not allowed
Filled the frame like sacred vows
(Verse 3)
Then a voice came through the wall
Speaker static like a heaven call
It said my name then played my past
Step by step like a broadcast
No one else could know that flow
But there it was in a ghosted tone
I screamed who’s there but no one came
Just shame and a cursed name
(Verse 4)
CJH cold in the skin
Didn’t bend didn’t blend
Thought I was a god again
Saw a spaceship outside descend
Particles gold like crowned descent
I blinked and reality bent
From CJH to SHU
Delusions flew while silence grew
Flooded the floor with clothes and spite
Watched the toilet rise in rite
Heard them scream down the hall
I chanted back I ruled it all
Shut your bitch ass up I roared
Delirium's king in a padded ward
(Verse 5)
Next stop Gateways Echo Park
Staff looked like T Shaq in the dark
Beat him one on one with grace
Dribbled like time in a glitched out space
Met a kid who said he’s Kent
Said werewolves tore his chest and went
I thought I had magic black
Controlled the radio through mental cracks
Songs responded every time
But I think it lived inside my mind
(Verse 6)
Next came Hawkins two months deep
They said I was high no drugs no sleep
Claimed I was blind and puked up tar
Sickness spilled from a phantom scar
Gained weight fast my face went wide
Roommate bleeding suicide
Nurses stitched but he’d still slice
Bane showed up with drool and fight
Braindead zombie fists like knives
I watched from bed while fearing life
(Hook)
Menthex dose me slow
Strap me in don’t let go
Hexed by mind branded breath
Labeled life diagnosed death
Menthex six times deep
Bled through beds I don’t sleep
Shut the voice numb the twitch
Menthex drips like a static stitch
Menthex Menthex
Whispered script
Sick built myth
Menthex
(Verse 7)
Back to Cerritos same damn tomb
Didn’t know I’d returned too soon
Florescent lights like a nursing home
Lost myself in skin and bone
From jail for meth and metal grip
Banged my head in a concrete crypt
Visitor looked like my dad’s clone
My heart said real my mind said no
(Verse 8)
Met a Culkin clone and Mac was chill
We traded ghosts for drawing skills
I sketched my demons and gave them out
They said my hands were cursed with clout
(Verse 9)
Thought it was home but it wasn’t mine
Used my key and slipped through time
Woman screamed John grab the gun
I ran before the scene was done
Cops arrived I hit the floor
5150 held once more
Harbor meds restraints and hiss
Booty juice in a blackout blitz
Heard a baby cry through the air
One long pitch that bent despair
Saw my mom though she was gone
Held that lie till it moved on
(Verse 10)
They said I hit a woman’s chest
Blackout rage I can’t contest
Penn Mar held me in the steep
A girl said cancer buried deep
Another said I looked like fame
I said that’s right I am the name
Thought I was Em with D12 pride
Tatted arms said I never lied
(Verse 11)
Del Amo next cops at the gate
Pressed the page and tapped my fate
He’ll decompensate the officer said
Booty juice knocked me dead
I didn’t scream just hit the mat
Tattooed up with a voice to match
Karaoke scars on blast
They clapped like I escaped the past
Released to streets no keys no plan
Dad said go with stranger’s hand
I bled six times I broke the chain
But the voice still loops inside my brain
(Hook – Refrain)
Menthex dose me slow
Strap me in don’t let go
Hexed by mind branded breath
Labeled life diagnosed death
Menthex six times deep
Bled through beds I don’t sleep
Shut the voice numb the twitch
Menthex drips like a static stitch
(Bridge)
Cerritos Gateways Hawkins grief
Back to Cerritos disbelief
Harbor held me Penn Mar screamed
Del Amo crushed what hope redeemed
Padded walls and needle strikes
Black bile vomit cursed nights
Labels doses ritual strife
They called it help I called it knife
Hexed in scripts I didn’t write
Stamped in pills erased from sight
I bled six times I broke the chain
But the voice still loops inside my brain
(Outro)
Still here
Still hexed
Still stitched
Still next
I wear the name
I sing the myth
I breathe the flame
I am Menthex
Menthex
Menthex
Menthex
Credits
Lyricist, Composer & Producer: Paul Banfield