Dark Matter by Convict Julie

Darkness hold space for light to shine I’ve learned to be one with my shadow because it’s always a part of me. If I sever my shadow from myself I become invisible. If I get lost in it, I become in invisible. Darkness is necessary. If we were always in the light we would get burned. If we always looked to the light, we’d be blind. For every time we open our eyes we must also close them. We spend all day with our eyes open and all night with our eyes closed. In daylight you still blink, allowing darkness to reset our ability to see. My shadow follows me all day holding in it everything that light can’t touch. Because It can’t touch all of me always. My shadow reminds me that I’m here still. The smaller the light gets, the bigger my shadow grows. I’ve learned to reject the idea that my shadow is a demon on my back and instead embrace it as a friend. Faithful, real, and grounding. Dark matter makes up 85% of the universe. It can’t be seen, but it can be felt... and that’s how I feel, unseen but overwhelmingly felt.

Tracklist

1.	Dark Matter	4:06

Lyrics

Tell me something I just wanna hear your voice
All that other shit just starts to sound like noise
You said you left my choice, don’t understand it
And I am somewhere between your planets
And all your cosmos
Somewhere abandoned
Somewhere within your disaster

I just wanna hear your voice
That’s all I’m asking
I need your laughter
But you would rather
Never be captured
Love ain’t your master
And in the end love won’t even matter
I’m just dark matter
I’m just dark matter

So give me poison
And trade your choices
Baby don’t worry
I’m hearing voices
They tell me hurry
Because it’s coming
But if I turn back
I’ll turn to nothing

Ashes falling down my spine
Tell me that you’re mine
But you belong to other people
I thought I had you I had pieces
I thought I had you, you were cheating
I started praying hit up Jesus
He told me I would meet your demons
Started asking for forgiveness
May the Lord be my witness
That I make it out the storm
And my existence be reborn
I’m turning into your dark matter
You only see me when you get this close
Only dark matter
You treat me like a ghost
Baby I don’t wanna haunt you
You make it so hard not to want to
I exist within your nothing
But when you need me girl I got you
I got you

Like fire needs air girl
I got you
I’ll always be there girl
I got you
I got you
I got you
I got you
Even though I don’t matter
I got you
I got you
I got you
I got you
Even though I don’t matter
I got you
That karma is working
It’s going for circle baby
Because I got you
I said I got you

I’m turning into your dark matter
You only see me when you get this close
Only dark matter
You treat me like a ghost
Baby I don’t wanna haunt you
You make it so hard not to want to
I exist within your nothing
But when you need me girl I got you
I got you

Credits

released July 31, 2021
Camilla Sims
Kolyo Vanchev

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